Over a week ago I came to Manhattan on a mission. I had a specific amount of money in my account and planned on doubling it maybe tripling. That didn’t happen, in fact I have half my original amount.
After my disaster the other night between Sapphire and Hustler, I didn’t go back to work. I intended to. Just didn’t. Sunday night I was going to go to Vivid after Sushi. My girl JC and I came back to her apartment and I never left the couch.
The next morning my boys were flying in. I told myself that I was going to not worry about anything and just enjoy the week. I could work later. I can work this week, or I can just work when I get to Florida. I let go of the expectation and decided to enjoy the moment.
The day could not have gone more perfectly!
I got a text from their grandma as I was circling the airport waiting to pick the three of them up. It said, “your packages have arrived omg such joy when they saw the snow lol they can’t wait to touch it lol”
I couldn’t stop smiling from cheek to cheek. I had missed them so much.
That moment, that very moment reading her message I remembered why I’m doing everything that I’m doing. Why I’m dancing in the first place.
It’s all for them!
I started homeschooling to give my boys a worldly education. I want them to travel. I want culture, experience, places, people to be the foundation of their education and not just a curriculum. We want to see places, not read about them. We want to taste the food not watch it on the travel channel. Hear the sounds not listen to them in a documentary.
I plan to give them the world and the world is expensive. SO I dance…
Why am I sitting in New York worrying about making money to go home and worry about making money to save for an RV to go do these things????
Why? When all I have to do is just do it now. Why wait for our next trip to Buffalo visiting Kristen for my babies to see the city? I’m not the type to put off for tomorrow what I can do today, so why am I doing that now?
I feel like things weren’t going my way because I lost touch with my purpose for doing them. I was still on my mission to travel, but I got so engrossed in how I was going to accomplish everything that I lost sight of my original purpose.
Dancing offers me the flexibility to come and go as I please wherever and whenever I want. And here I am putting limitations on myself, on my goals.
Life is happening now. Not tomorrow. Right now. Learning is happening now. My children are ready now, not when I get the money.
So I put the idea of saving for a set amount aside and purchased flights to bring my boys to me. To New York City. Where they have never been before.
Upon their arrival, the snow started to fall. It’s been cold all week, freezing to be exact, but it hasn’t snowed yet.
Do you know what my children wanted to do more than anything? They wanted to see snow for the very first time. I was going to allow them to miss this opportunity just to make more money. I can’t even explain how happy I am that everything didn’t work out as planned.
They got off the plane and the enthusiasm in their eyes set my heart on fire.
Today, fulfilled so many of their wish lists. Their first yellow cab ride in New York City. Their first time seeing snow and their very first snowball fight.
This afternoon we went to the Museum of Natural History. They love the movie, Night at the Museum. Gabe couldn’t wait to go in a real New York museum. We saw a movie in the Planetarium and spent an amazing family day together learning and making memories. That is exactly why I started homeschooling in the first place. To live in these moments! Everyday. That is exactly what I’m going to continue to do……. I will still plan and save, but not to a point where I put life on hold.
No more worrying about “I have to make this to do this”, or “I need to save that to buy that”. Nope not anymore. Everyday is an opportunity. Even bad days. Those are days of reflection and lessons learned.
I’m still going to do my 30 day stripper challenge, but I’m going to start that the first of March since I’m working all of bike week anyways. This week, I’m just in the moment. If I work, I work….If I don’t, I don’t
*******PS here’s something I learned today….If you go to the museum or any government funded establishment and it says “suggested donation” and has a price….do not pay the price. Say I’d like to suggest” ” and then pick your price. Today we suggested a donation of $1.00 and all five of us got into the museum for a total of $5.00. You see, your tax dollars already pay your admission and the museum is for your educational enjoyment. All admissions are donations and depending on what you can donate, is what you should donate.*******
So all you parents out there who read my blog, go enjoy what our government has provided for us and stop worrying about what it cost.
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